Hello Guys and Gals,
I felt inspired for many reasons tonight/this morning, but one in particular was that this month, September, was the month I visited my mom in the hospital and about 5 weeks from the day that she passed away. This post is my update with her passing/depression/mourning/new life/ new thinking… yes it is that much!
At the beginning of 2013, I found myself at times very unstable and depressed because I had to find a way to cope. I searched many sites and talked to many people, but I found for me that it had to be My process of how I was going to deal with it.
I fell into the deepest depression that i have ever felt. Know what pulled me out?
Meditating on the Word and praying to my God.
This is why i want to share this song at the bottom with you all because it came to me as I was trying to fall asleep moments ago. I had to give myself away so He could use me. My trials are not my trials alone, I share my experiences with others to give them the right words to hear when they experience my trials.
I still cry and mourn every now and then for her, but i pick myself back up with hopes that her memory never fades in my mind and that i meet her in the Spirit world when it is my time.
Back in March and April, I was still deeply depressed and going through relationship issues, but found my way back to the Bible, listening to gospel(I havent completely let go of my R&B and Neo Soul), and started thinking positive.
I’m better, but it’s a day by day process.
Today…I still “Give myself away…” 🙂
Peace and Blessings,
Random Mixed Chick
William McDowell “I give myself away” Song