Healers|Healing|Self Love Tarot Spread

Peace Family!

I had a wonderful self-love healing reading tonight with a client, but before I began I tested this new spread that i found on Pinterest out on myself…I was elated! Although only 5 cards….It’s bad-ass and packs a punch full of knowledge to help propel you on your journey.

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  1. Relationship to Self|The Fool~ It’s about Awareness….trusting self more, new beginnings,  a free spirit, intuition on point! Following my own mind…marching to the beat of my own drum even though others may judge or disagree…Im doing me! 🙂 How beautiful?! To me, it’s also about cycles of being here on Earth. you have these mountains, representing challenges….constantly questioning your preparedness for them, while you have the mist, representing Spirit in general, there for your protection on your journey.
  2. Admirable Qualities|Integration(Temperance in RW deck)~It’s about Verification…self creation…new life. Everything is interchangeable here and flowing together finally! You have the snake at the bottom of the card…” The Ouroboros has been said to have a meaning of infinity or wholeness.” It feels like a woman hovering over Mother earth with the Yin/Yang symbol speaking of balance….bringing about the pure and innocent qualities in the Swan and the strong minded and powerful male Eagle together….Represented as well…is the crystal on the crown chakra bringing so much clarity to life.
  3. Disowned Self|Rebirth~This is asking to get out of that lazy mode where your self satisfied, like the Camel, at the moment as if you have nothing else to do….there’s always more to be completed and healed. It’s okay to be content, but don’t let that evolve into a hinderance. Be like the mighty Lion..powerful, fearless, and a individual…which i know wraps back around to the Fool card…Be yourself…walk in your journey.
  4. Release|Thunderbolt(The Tower in RW deck)~Since it was in reverse..it speaks of avoiding of disaster, fear of change…and also fear of failing, to me. But, after the change(fire) there is always rebirth of new, fresh things. That’s when the awakening really happens! Meeting the process 1/2 is key. The lightning bolt is ridding the people of physical things more so spiritual…shedding old patterns.
  5. More Love to self|Celebration~ Water represented…meaning newness, freshness, rebirth…Wind meaning change, but a good change nonetheless because these 3 (my life path number) women represented are having fun and being carefree. The leaves are falling it seems in Fall/Autumn…which is about change and letting go, preservation, maturity, protection, and balance(integration card also).

Overall, My cards i pulled for self love was simply about Growth! If you aren’t uncomfortable, then you aren’t growing! 🙂

 

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Peace & Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick

 

 

Love|Marriage|Reflection

Peace Family!

 

I come to you so much better than I felt a few days ago. I had a range of emotions pulled out my being all at once. Know why? My kids father got married. Since I’ve done my own shadow work, I can’t do anything but be honest with you all. My poor little heart was hit like the “High Striker Sledge Hammer” game at the fair. I was “butt hurt” and in my feelings. I cried. I’m not even going to lie. 9022ba21927e066613cc0c8fb0d026e2

I was happy for them, but it was weird though. My emotions went from extremely happy, sad, jealous, envious, trying to be happy again, and melancholic. This was different though…the jealousy wasn’t like I want him back, or that i wanted them to be separated…No, this was one of those feelings like, damn….when will it be my time? I started to question my own self-healing work. I think what helped increase those feelings was that I have several people around me getting married to their mate, but I had to shake those feelings and not allow it to overcome me. Those were just negative affirmations racing through my mind. I know deep within my core, I will always be that person that’s even more happy than the person going through any exciting life event.

As I soak in my tub, contemplating writing this blog post…I tried to talk myself out of it, but someone needed to hear this!

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Get your ass in there and blog about this!

Realization

My time will come. This is their time to enjoy. It’s not easy always putting your feelings aside, but the work I’ve been doing on myself, to better me, was necessary. The mature person that I’ve grown to be congratulated them(…and because of the spirituality I am in, I burned a white & pink prayer candle for them to always have Love and Protection). I’ve always loved her for him ever since we met years ago and I know she will be a good wife for him… to ground him. Most importantly, she will be a awesome stepmom to our kids. They’ve made the choice to give all of our kids stability. That is a gift in itself!

Our fine little’ step daddy is on the way….! 

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Etsy photo from ValerieKStudio

I begin to think …the reflection of my higher self  is on his way! I hope I’m ready for him and vice versa. Until then, I’m going to continue working on me and healing past wounds, so when he comes, I can love him properly and be loved thoroughly.

My song Blind Man by SPZRKT/Xavier Omar began to play…I want my “reflection” to love me like that! 🙂

Love the lyrics….
“I can love you with my eyes closed
I don’t lose sight of your beauty
‘Cos your heart is fine gold baby
Imma take my time with your mind

Your ambition won’t leave me alone
Tell me ’bout your dreams, tell me everything
Don’t nobody care about your heart like I do
Girl I’m down for you just the way that you’re down for me

Body like a queen
But it ain’t about your body baby it’s about your being
I ain’t rolling up, but I’m on a high
When you really think about it, ain’t no wonder why”

 

 

 

Peace and Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick

Living my “3” Year= 30th Bday

I love playing around with Numerology. I have found that when adding up my bday and the year I’m in now, I’m living a “3” life at the moment. Plus, so many synchronicities… in my life related to the “3”. By the way…It’s Taurus Season!!!!

So, let’s begin….

I add 5+9+1+9+8+7= 39, 3+9= 12, 2+1=3 my birth life path numbers are 39/12/3…Creative Cooperation

I add 5+9+2+0+1+7= 24, 2+4=6, this year is  also a 24/6….Vision & Acceptance

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39/12/3 means according to my book,  The Life You Were Born To Live by Dan Millman, my life path says “m here to work through, issues of creativity, cooperation, and integrity, expressing themselves through creative teamwork, aligned with higher wisdom”…”abundant creative energy”….”highly emotional and intuitive”…”hypersensitive”. “Once they overcome self-doubt and step forward into the world with their unique combination of talents and drives, their fortunes will rise to the occasion”. Living a “3” life path number…. “People born under this Number are ambitious and they usually have a very strong will. Most of them are quite busy about their careers, for many people that that are born with Number 3 it may be not easy to accept a subordinate position. They know what it means – to have power and they know how to use it. These people always have enough energy to make their dreams come true, they rarely doubt and they do not like the other to be uncertain. People of Number 3 are usually building great plans, because they know how to implement them.”

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I’ve had self-doubt so often in my life… I still deal with it. The great part about it is, so does everyone else. I’m never alone in that. I had doubt airing my dirty laundry, but i feel much more free because I’m getting to express myself through writing….and I’m getting great responses from it all. I was nervous of judgement of things related to spirituality, healing, and magick. Other people try to project their fear on you when they don’t understand. I’ve always been into these things, but i couldn’t step fully into my calling until i went through my phases/ascensions. Understanding duality of life. I can be that voice to say “hey, i’ve been on both sides…this is what it’s like!” I just have to say, God, I’m so grateful! It brings you to a level of judging less, but giving more insight. Helping, healing….

Healer

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I was supposed to be a healer. Back in 4th/5th grade, my mom and my step dad were arguing and fighting(as usual), but thing that changed that day was when she almost died. I don’t take credit for saving her life. She was banging on the a glass window, trying to get my step dad’s attention as he rode off with his friend…Her arm with through the window and she began to bleed every where….she staggered to the back of the house, bleeding everywhere. My brothers and i were shocked. I had to think quick. I knew that if we had a cut to add pressure, so i hollered for my brothers to get me towels and the phone. I wrapped them around her arm to cover the main vein aka the Basilic Vein. She was already a Caucasian woman, but she was even more white. I thought she was going to die. Im sure in the midst of it all i called 911. They ended up taking her to the hospital. I was left to do damage control…I had to mop up the blood. It was a lot. I cant remember my step dad showing back up and cant remember him going to the hospital. Hopefully he did.

After that experience, I made sure that my path was planned for me to be a RN or Vet. I thought to myself, if i can help save my own mothers life, then surely i can help others.

Life takes a several turns….

Well, I’m not a RN yet…i have several decades to get through, but i did graduate with a Communication degree hence I’m here writing now with debt! LOL I was told by a spiritual advisor that I can heal in other ways…so now I’m putting more energy into my blog, candle making, and doing oracle readings. I’m on a mission to heal!

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Im also in a “6” year! Its about Vision and Acceptance. I’m here to ” work through perfectionism, process, and responsibility, taking life one step at a time, manifesting my vision in practical ways, and accepting the inherent perfections of life”. Living a “6” year… ”  While the 6 is considered the most harmonious of all single-digit numbers, it is not without its flaws and upsets. The most important influence of the 6 is its loving and caring nature. Properly nicknamed the motherhood number, it is all about sacrificing, caring, healing, protecting and teaching others. No family or community can function without the power of the 6 to keep them together and safe. She is the glue that keeps a family or community together. “

Peace and Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick

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My Child Called Me Old…What is “That” Anyway?!? Entering the “30” Club!

Damn…Kids say the darndest thing! <insert eye rolls> I’m not even going to lie…my poor, little heart sunk in my ass for a second….each…and…every…damn…time that I say, “Hey, I’m turning 30”. *Pulls braids* I’m not old, I reply, “I was in my early twenties when i had you….”

I’m not nervous about turning 30 the least bit. Want to know what I’m scared as hell about for real though?!?? Student…fucking…loans! Yep, my time is up. I’m on the fast track to  paying those “things” back ASAP. *groans* Can someone just GIVE me that exorbitant amount in a check already please? LOL

But, seriously…I’m excited. I can say I’m the real deal grown now…I wont seem like the baby out of the group… *Opens arms* I’m welcoming you 30!!

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Learning Moments….

I have learned that time isn’t waiting…do all the fun things that your heart has desired~ Live for you~ You can only control yourself…you can’t control BF’s, friends, or husbands/wives~People are going to do what you allow them to do~ Say no sometimes~ Help someone~ Do charity work to remind yourself of humility~Love on your kids or spouse!~ Take lots of bubble baths with wine…yes, lots.~ Research ideas and understand how it’s related to your life~ Take meaningful trips~ Have alone time~ Ladies, wait guys out sometimes…and experience a 1 night stand, if that’s your thing( we will all do it one day)~Tell someone when they are wrong and right~ Love and appreciate your parents or loved one’s~ Choose peace over chaos, but “knuck and buck” if you have too(“ain’t nobody got time for that”)~ Love yourself unconditionally~ Smile…you never know who is watching~  🙂

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My list is endless….

These are just some things i started doing later in my twenties, when i decided to stop living for other people and began to live for myself. I’m doing me and doing what I want. It’s so much more peaceful… 🙂

Can we get old together and rich in experiences? 🙂

What life lessons can you reflect on before entering the “30” Club?

Peace and Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick

 

Oracle Reading for “Piper”

4 Card Spread

I did this reading for a friend’s sister at the end of April…I am using it for practice with permission and using an alias, again.

Question: What are the drastic changes of feel coming?

Situation: A Blessing Woven in Time: woman hidden…barely exposed by the tree…protected by all its limbs…heart slightly exposed..not showing the world all of her…possibly because she’s hurt…the card is suggesting to go within…mediate..heal. near the heart there is a level hearts=love, people are here to protect you, go in isolation for a while to heal. You or others need peace with yourself.

Obstacles: Blessed Tranquility: Blue=peace, tree reflected on the water…self reflection…meditation…are you who you see on the inside? Imperfections…bumps on the branches of tree reflection, but not on the actual tree…can you heal, accept, and be at peace with self?

Recommended Action: A Blessing of Relationship: healthy, happiness,, 2 hearts, yellow= hope and happiness, all intertwined..grounded, connected, clarity…peace and support… path to oneness. This could deal with the love for a child or adult.

Solution: The Blessing of Oneness: Rod of Asclepius…nonvenomous snake winding up the tree seen in healing temples in Greek Mythology, rejuvenation, red, yellow , and green chakras. Red chakra-” The chakra colors associated with the root chakra is Red. The root chakra defines our relation to Earth. It impacts our vitality, passion and survival instincts. The red chakra colors are also indicative of our need for logic and order, physical strength and sexuality as well as the fight or flight response when faced with danger.” Yellow chakra-” The solar plexus chakra is the personal power chakra that is responsible for one’s personal and professional success. The chakra colors yellow of this energy vortex are associated with fire, energy, charge etc. This element of fire, when balanced and harmonious allows one to feel more confident, cheerful and energetic along with a right amount of respect for self and others. ” Green Chakra– ” This chakra influences our relationships and has the Air element. A weak heart chakra is responsible for sabotaging the relationships through distrust, anger and envy etc…”

Heal these chakras while in isolation and meditation is a successful to oneness! 🙂

Peace and Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick

Oracle Reading for “Darling Nikki”

I am so grateful to my friends for allowing me to practice with them with my cards, so for that reason, I have obtained permission to use their readings on my blog and giving them an alias. so let’s get right to it…!

I am still using a 4 card spread: Situation, Obstacles, Recommended Action, and Outcome. She asked her questions and understood that things could change for the reading… I can give possible outcomes.

Question: What direction should I go with the three things that dwell in my heart? (I found out in the end it was dealing with self, family, and career).

Situation: A Blessed Gift: tree radiating light..shining for the world…growth…dark roots underneath…possible unresolved situations…maybe with self that needs attention, but shining through it. (This had to do with self and past family issues). Go and repair things that happened in your childhood…remember who you are.

Obstacles: The Blessing of Creativity: Blue=Calmness(throat chakra=Speaking)…vocalizing her hurts and past..therapeutic….getting it off her chest… 3 butterfly’s= trinity…new beginnings in the 3 things she had questions about… Tree means money, growth, prosperity, water….Stars and hearts= love, spreading love, giving herself love

Recommended Action: The Blessing of Endless Possibilities  : The mother…fish=children, sisters…all needing her… pink=love…the sea is endless

Outcome: A Blessed Season: Beauty, reflection, peace, tranquility, love

Lemons of Life

Im sitting here in my bed on this Sunday, simply looking over life, my weekend-as it is coming to a close, and how peaceful I am with my kids today. We’re all doing our own thing in the house today. Im blasting my Pandora track That’s What I Like by Bruno Mars and Erykah Badu….just vibing as a write! Loving these feelings. I have to think, I am so grateful. I don’t have much material things as the richest person, but I’m not “piss poor” as they would say in the South either. I’m so grateful that I can lay in a bed and even write this for you to read now. Amazing!

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I’m running my hands over these keys on the keyboard…thinking, damn I have been through so much stuff in my life. It went from alcoholic parents, parents fighting, ending up in DHR, navigating through foster homes and a group home, moving out of the system, graduating high school and college, having kids, resurrecting dead ass relationships, mother passing, my spiritual journey, and finding self-which is an adventure in itself! I made it through…I’m literally here….2 days shy of 30 years!

Those lemons of life could have broken me with their sour asses, but I made pink lemonade baby! I’m here and thriving!!

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Be encouraged. Find your path and know that those problems are only temporary…they are lessons. That’s it. It’s okay if you buckle a few times, but get back up! Don’t think no one else falls either…we’re all trying to make it. Know that you are loved! I love you!

 

Peace and Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick