Love|Marriage|Reflection

Peace Family!

 

I come to you so much better than I felt a few days ago. I had a range of emotions pulled out my being all at once. Know why? My kids father got married. Since I’ve done my own shadow work, I can’t do anything but be honest with you all. My poor little heart was hit like the “High Striker Sledge Hammer” game at the fair. I was “butt hurt” and in my feelings. I cried. I’m not even going to lie. 9022ba21927e066613cc0c8fb0d026e2

I was happy for them, but it was weird though. My emotions went from extremely happy, sad, jealous, envious, trying to be happy again, and melancholic. This was different though…the jealousy wasn’t like I want him back, or that i wanted them to be separated…No, this was one of those feelings like, damn….when will it be my time? I started to question my own self-healing work. I think what helped increase those feelings was that I have several people around me getting married to their mate, but I had to shake those feelings and not allow it to overcome me. Those were just negative affirmations racing through my mind. I know deep within my core, I will always be that person that’s even more happy than the person going through any exciting life event.

As I soak in my tub, contemplating writing this blog post…I tried to talk myself out of it, but someone needed to hear this!

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Get your ass in there and blog about this!

Realization

My time will come. This is their time to enjoy. It’s not easy always putting your feelings aside, but the work I’ve been doing on myself, to better me, was necessary. The mature person that I’ve grown to be congratulated them(…and because of the spirituality I am in, I burned a white & pink prayer candle for them to always have Love and Protection). I’ve always loved her for him ever since we met years ago and I know she will be a good wife for him… to ground him. Most importantly, she will be a awesome stepmom to our kids. They’ve made the choice to give all of our kids stability. That is a gift in itself!

Our fine little’ step daddy is on the way….! 

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Etsy photo from ValerieKStudio

I begin to think …the reflection of my higher self  is on his way! I hope I’m ready for him and vice versa. Until then, I’m going to continue working on me and healing past wounds, so when he comes, I can love him properly and be loved thoroughly.

My song Blind Man by SPZRKT/Xavier Omar began to play…I want my “reflection” to love me like that! 🙂

Love the lyrics….
“I can love you with my eyes closed
I don’t lose sight of your beauty
‘Cos your heart is fine gold baby
Imma take my time with your mind

Your ambition won’t leave me alone
Tell me ’bout your dreams, tell me everything
Don’t nobody care about your heart like I do
Girl I’m down for you just the way that you’re down for me

Body like a queen
But it ain’t about your body baby it’s about your being
I ain’t rolling up, but I’m on a high
When you really think about it, ain’t no wonder why”

 

 

 

Peace and Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick

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Envision Your Vision Board

Hello Beauties!

It’s been a while….but I’m back…again 🙂

Of course, I hope that all of you have thought deeply about what you wanted out of life before you expire, yes?

This 2015, I began to think about the places I wanted to visit, live, vacation, and what debt I wanted to come to a Zero balance! It is so easy to envision all the things you want to come to past by simply using the “Law of Attraction”, praying, and envisioning. The key is to wake up looking at the photos beliveing that you WILL do these things very soon! I even added, as you can see, photos of my family attach to where were going-because were going. 🙂 I have always wanted to share those travel experience with my two lovies’ :), so were definitely making it a priority to have passport by late 2015 or early 2016. I cant wait until we add stamps! * jumps up and down on bed*

I encompassed various topics in mine such as: Love & Marriage/Wedding, Local Travel, Finances/Tithing, Career, Health, Car/Home, Helping People, and International Travel.

In Love/Marriage…I definitely want to be happliy married and also to share travel experiences, too. He must not be boring…. Wedding…simple beach wedding…with the lots of orchids and hibiscus’s…

In Local Travel… places that we could go every few months to adventure off to….. Standing in the middle of Times Square in NYC…. Disney Cruise to the Bahamas…Disney Animal Kingdom Vacay’ for my lovies… 🙂

 

Financing/Tithing….Without tithing, personally for me, I cant tell you what I would have done…..I would love to be debt free…. without student loan debt….I want to be the lender and not the borrower, as my bestie would say 🙂

Career…..this is a tough one…I had my life planned out in 5th grade….I had hopes to be  nurse or vet…the best things about it..is that i have many decades to make this dream happen…I love the feeling of being needed and helping others…its a satisfaction that feels so good. I would love to make money blogging, do speaking engagements about career coaching, being a foster child, and a single mother to encourage others.

Car/Home…yes….ahhhhh… I will have 4 bedroom home and 2 car garage.

Helping People….I would love to focus on the homeless….I will do basic necessities bags…and help them find jobs, have clean clothes, and housing.

International Travel….I have always had a strong desire to visit Egypt…its something about the pyramids that attract me so…. I love the Northern Lights in Alaska as well….. Or go on a Safari ride with my kids in other parts of Africa…or how about Paris *hugs self* so much love 🙂

Always Remember………

You have to speak and believe these things you desire into existence. “I will have the money to pay off every debt”, ” I will have all the money necessary to travel every place I desire”, and “I will have the love that is destined for me to have”. It doesnt stop there…..You have to constantly remind yourself and meditate on what you want.

 

Please work on your vision board and reply with a photo of what you have been working on! 🙂11796346_910817947701_620909736111648834_n

DIY FOOD!! Pepperoni Pizza Puffs

Hello Beauties!

I wanted to share this cute kids friendly recipe idea with you all today! I recently made a Pepperoni Pizza Puff for my babies! 🙂

I bought Grands biscuits, pizza sauce, shredded cheese, pepperoni, and light cooking spray.

First, spray your cupcake pan with cooking spray. Second, take your biscuit dough and flatten and cup it, so that it will the other ingredients. Third, add pizza sauce and cheese. Then, add pepperoni and even more cheese.. I love cheese, don’t you? 🙂

Voila! You have made a cheaper version of a pizza and its easier for kids to hold…. let them help if you like!

Send me your pizza puff picture below 🙂

Peace & Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick

Super gooey cheese 😛

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Oh How I Would Love to Do Some Things in Peace…

While being pregnant with my first child, I never thought that getting some private time in would be so bad. I mean, all i had to do was leave her in her bouncy seat and take a quick shower. But oh boy, when I had my second child, things change even more drastically. By this time, she was walking -everywhere and he was crawling.

As parents, we want and need some private time! We love our children and will always want whats best for them. At the same time, for us to save some sanity, we have to take time for ourselves. It’s important for single parents, but seems a little more important for people in relationships, or marriages because too much time not focused on why youre together in the first place can lead to you ending what you had to begin with as well.

Things “I Would Love to Do in Peace” for starters is 1. Go to the bathroom in peace(without having a head peep through the door, “So…Mommy, what ya’ doing?” and eat my food in peace without having “Hungry Eyes” give me the guilty look for not sharing off my plate what i have already given them…

Why do kids think everything looks better off mommy and daddy’s plate? 🙂

Peace and Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick

This is my children stalking the food on my plate… 🙂