Lemons of Life

Im sitting here in my bed on this Sunday, simply looking over life, my weekend-as it is coming to a close, and how peaceful I am with my kids today. We’re all doing our own thing in the house today. Im blasting my Pandora track That’s What I Like by Bruno Mars and Erykah Badu….just vibing as a write! Loving these feelings. I have to think, I am so grateful. I don’t have much material things as the richest person, but I’m not “piss poor” as they would say in the South either. I’m so grateful that I can lay in a bed and even write this for you to read now. Amazing!

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I’m running my hands over these keys on the keyboard…thinking, damn I have been through so much stuff in my life. It went from alcoholic parents, parents fighting, ending up in DHR, navigating through foster homes and a group home, moving out of the system, graduating high school and college, having kids, resurrecting dead ass relationships, mother passing, my spiritual journey, and finding self-which is an adventure in itself! I made it through…I’m literally here….2 days shy of 30 years!

Those lemons of life could have broken me with their sour asses, but I made pink lemonade baby! I’m here and thriving!!

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Be encouraged. Find your path and know that those problems are only temporary…they are lessons. That’s it. It’s okay if you buckle a few times, but get back up! Don’t think no one else falls either…we’re all trying to make it. Know that you are loved! I love you!

 

Peace and Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick

C H A N G E S| Journey

Hello Loves!

For those who know me personally, I am always speaking of changes and being on a Journey.

What is Change?

a :  to make different in some particular :  alter <never bothered to change the will> b :  to make radically different :  transform <can’t change human nature> c :  to give a different position, course, or direction to a :  to replace with another <let’s change the subject> b :  to make a shift from one to another :  switch <always changes sides in an argument> c :  to exchange for an equivalent sum of money (as in smaller denominations or in a foreign currency) <change a 20-dollar bill> :  to undergo a modification of <foliage changing color>

What is a Journey?

       1 :  an act or instance of traveling from one place to another :  trip
2 chiefly dialect :  a day’s travel 3:  something suggesting travel or passage from one place to another <the journey from youth to maturity> <a journey through time>
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I use to shy away from change, but now I embrace it…Never knew how to adapt to it, or at least never had the desire either.
By definition, I am on and have been on this Journey full of Changes since 2013…coming into my own person & sincerely knowing and loving me first.
The thing about change is, is that it can be invited, or it can just happen…when it just happens…it can be more uncomfortable. Being that uncomfortable can make you the best person that you’ve Never been.
So…since 2013-2014….I separated from a 5 year relationship…Began a relationship for several months in 2014-2015…it was different and fun…and i re-learned how to love and to be hurt…but i was able to simply apply it as a life experience and move on from that moment…and were still friends! I can call him whenever about anything ….2015…it had its challenges…my two loves started school(kids being kids…possible ADHD …post coming soon….) …Made some great friends along the way….this year taught me about existing friendships and taking inventory on those…You have to be with people who add value to your life and make you a better person…I experiemented with new hair styles and color…I’m loving the Red currently! I found that I actually Love EDM itself(get lost in the instrumentals y’all), Sango, Alina Baraz & Galimatias, Marian Hill, etc….I added 5 other piercings and 1 tattoo to my body…I also came out to some close family and friends(and now to the world 🙂 ) that I am Bicurious….not sure where that will lead to (its been made clear that you dont have to accept it because its my life), but i believe that you should be honest with yourself…and by being honest with yourself first, then growth occurs.Yay for Growth!! 🙂
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I believe that people live their entire life trying to please another human(s). My entire life, up until now, has been lived for someone else. How is that living, Or are you merely existing? To define your happiness based on someone elses’s life and values…For what reason(s)? For them to agree, validate, and like you more? You can be your normal self and you will still have people judge you. This Journey has taught me to judge less and to correct those who want to judge more.  Dont live you life full of regret and wishing that you could have done this ,or that…Just do it now! Of course, be within reason. We are never going to be perfect and we still may mess up, but at least we are conscious the next time that we want to be mean to someone because they seem different. Be Kind and do right by people, but dont apologize for who you are growing to be(positive of course).
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2016 will be Beautiful…judging less, more QT w/family and friends, loving myself even more, and traveling! I hope I see you on the way! 🙂
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(this is  constant reminder above, that i have in my bathroom for preparation daily, as I leave my home and set out on my Journey to be changed.)
Know & Love yourself so that you will know how to love others.
With so much Love,
Random Mixed Chick
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Envision Your Vision Board

Hello Beauties!

It’s been a while….but I’m back…again 🙂

Of course, I hope that all of you have thought deeply about what you wanted out of life before you expire, yes?

This 2015, I began to think about the places I wanted to visit, live, vacation, and what debt I wanted to come to a Zero balance! It is so easy to envision all the things you want to come to past by simply using the “Law of Attraction”, praying, and envisioning. The key is to wake up looking at the photos beliveing that you WILL do these things very soon! I even added, as you can see, photos of my family attach to where were going-because were going. 🙂 I have always wanted to share those travel experience with my two lovies’ :), so were definitely making it a priority to have passport by late 2015 or early 2016. I cant wait until we add stamps! * jumps up and down on bed*

I encompassed various topics in mine such as: Love & Marriage/Wedding, Local Travel, Finances/Tithing, Career, Health, Car/Home, Helping People, and International Travel.

In Love/Marriage…I definitely want to be happliy married and also to share travel experiences, too. He must not be boring…. Wedding…simple beach wedding…with the lots of orchids and hibiscus’s…

In Local Travel… places that we could go every few months to adventure off to….. Standing in the middle of Times Square in NYC…. Disney Cruise to the Bahamas…Disney Animal Kingdom Vacay’ for my lovies… 🙂

 

Financing/Tithing….Without tithing, personally for me, I cant tell you what I would have done…..I would love to be debt free…. without student loan debt….I want to be the lender and not the borrower, as my bestie would say 🙂

Career…..this is a tough one…I had my life planned out in 5th grade….I had hopes to be  nurse or vet…the best things about it..is that i have many decades to make this dream happen…I love the feeling of being needed and helping others…its a satisfaction that feels so good. I would love to make money blogging, do speaking engagements about career coaching, being a foster child, and a single mother to encourage others.

Car/Home…yes….ahhhhh… I will have 4 bedroom home and 2 car garage.

Helping People….I would love to focus on the homeless….I will do basic necessities bags…and help them find jobs, have clean clothes, and housing.

International Travel….I have always had a strong desire to visit Egypt…its something about the pyramids that attract me so…. I love the Northern Lights in Alaska as well….. Or go on a Safari ride with my kids in other parts of Africa…or how about Paris *hugs self* so much love 🙂

Always Remember………

You have to speak and believe these things you desire into existence. “I will have the money to pay off every debt”, ” I will have all the money necessary to travel every place I desire”, and “I will have the love that is destined for me to have”. It doesnt stop there…..You have to constantly remind yourself and meditate on what you want.

 

Please work on your vision board and reply with a photo of what you have been working on! 🙂11796346_910817947701_620909736111648834_n

It’s Levels to this Spiritual Thing, You See!

Hello Blessed One’s

 

Have you ever been so excited about going online, or standing in line to get the best concert tickets to see your favorite musician? If you have the funds paired with the high level of passion and interest…then you are definitely going to want to be in the front to be able to see that person in concert. So…Why is it  that we can’t have that same enthusiasm for the very first row of seats at church?  Everybody will bypass the first row for no really good reason.

I have a been thinking about a creative way to express this post all week…and I finally have it. Its levels to this spiritual progress.

 

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Sitting to the Side or those Upper Level Seats: I can raise both of my hands because I have been there and done it! 🙂 I remember not wanting to be at church hearing a Word at all…..and if i had to go, I wanted to be able to escape….down the hall, stairs, or back entrance…especially if it was boring. During these times, I thought i could handle my problems alone, depended upon man to get what i needed, or simply had lack of respect for the minister’s thoughts..because they didnt apply to my life, right?! These are the seats where you dont have to do too much and you basically blend in with the rest of those lost people who are on the verge of “trying”. I fell asleep…i ate food….and barely even put money into the offering basket. When it was time to sing, or give Jesus some glory and praise…i lightly clapped and definitely looked around to see who was watching me. I think back to myself and asked why??

 

Next… we have the Lower Level Mezzanine and the Floor Seats: The Mezzanine seats gives you a good view that enables you to see details and may even cost a little more than the seats above. People who are at the halfway mark through their spiritual journey will usually sit here. These people have gotten out of their shell..a little…they will clap a little louder…and “touch their neighbor”.The Floor Seats are the bomb!! Now if youre here…youre most likely 3/4 the way. Sitting here at the concert means that its possible for you to dance, clap, shout, and lets not forget…touching your neighbor without looking around at your peers out of shame. When youre at this point, you have probably had a few road blocks and many trials that made you want to give up. You may have just given up, but you always came back to Jesus. You know of nothing else in your heart, mind and soul but to come back when you have been knocked down.

Now….if you have lots of dinero’ for Orchestra Seat, you my friend have made it….on Earth. But, if you have made it to the 1st and 2nd row of chairs, or pews at church, you have come full circle and understand that the riches here on Earth mean nothing without being grounded in the Word. You have sought the Kingdom and understand that if you seek Jesus First that everything else Will be added to you. Youre not afraid to raise your hand in praise and worship, youre not afraid of what people are going to think…because you now understand that they are sinners just like you. At this point, sitting in to the side, upper level, mezzanine, or floor seats does nothing for you. It only feels good to your soul to be close to the stage.

 

Personally, I have come full circle and made it to the Orchestra because I am just plain tired of sitting elsewhere. I need to focus on the Word and nothing else. If Im sitting in the front, where is my distraction from the Word?

What also helps to propel you forward on your spiritual journey is to have like-minded, or better individuals surrounding you. Ever heard of the “crabs in the bucket effect”? You cant get anywhere with people who want to keep you down with them in sin? Progression is wonderful. 🙂

Which area have you chosen to sit in lately? Let me know where you are at on your spiritual journey today!

 

Peace and Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick

 

My Love Patches….an Alopecia Inspired Post <3

Hello Blessed One’s,

I have battled since i discovered my “patches” about sharing this portion of my life’s journey. But…because everyone knows that i connect through “over-sharing” some things, I decided that I wouldnt live in fear of what others may think, or say.

Here goes…I have Alopecia.

According to the National Alopecia Areata Foundation,

“Alopecia areata is a common disease that results in the loss of hair on the scalp and elsewhere on the body. There are three types of alopecia areata; alopecia areata, alopecia totalis and alopecia universalis.

Alopecia areata, the most common variation of the autoimmune disease, presents itself as round, smooth patches of various sizes.

In all forms of alopecia areata, the hair follicles remain alive and are ready to resume normal hair production whenever they receive the appropriate signal. In all cases, hair re-growth may occur even without treatment and even after many years.

Alopecia areata occurs in males and females of all ages and races; however, onset most often begins in childhood and can be psychologically devastating. Although not life-threatening, alopecia areata is most certainly life-altering, and its sudden onset, recurrent episodes, and unpredictable course have a profound psychological impact on the lives of those disrupted by this disease. But there is hope. In all cases, hair re-growth may occur even without treatment and even after many years.”   National Alopecia Areata Foundation

I found out that I had a bald spot one night at the beginning of July 2014 when I was combing through my hair. I thought I was going a little crazy at first because i had never had spots before in my head. I kind of came to tears and began to panic. I began texting pictures to friends and family..which they told me to calm down about. I asked if this was lupus, even cancer…because i just didnt understand how hair could just go missing. I did the only thing I heard and knew how to do. I “laid hands” on my bald spot. Now…. to non-spiritual people, “laying hands” would seem silly, but from where Im from its common. I figured if people could pray over other people, then surely prayer could help a bald spot. The next few days I make a dermatologist appointment with the sweetest doctor I know( Shout out to Dr. Love of Montgomery Al.). In my free time, i began inundating my mind with different websites and videos..trying to self diagnose myself before my appointment. I was sure it had to be the hair products I was using even as a natural. I made up my mind that no matter what I had inflicting my scalp, that I would try to make my own natural hair products, just in case.

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Mid-July arrives when its time for me to meet with Dr.Love. She and the nurse examine my scalp….as im waiting for the news. She lets me know that I have Alopecia Areata. Also, she alerts me that I have two other spots in the back of my head With a raised freckle(she cuts it from my scalp to test for cancer…results came back..and it is non cancerous). She explains that it is an autoimmune disease and sometimes it can come when the person is under severe stress. I started to think ” hmmmm….I have been under a lot of personal stress lately…”. She told me try to eliminate the stress, get a massage, and go forth with receiving the steroid injections to stimulate my hair growth. I wasn’t scared about a needle going into my scalp because 1.) Im a diabetic and 2.) I want my hair to grow back. I did it. 🙂

It is now mid- August, my hair is sprouting some new hair and im excited! She said it would take at least 3 months for hair to begin growing. For a few weeks I was fearful to wear it down. I was on a trip to New Orleans and asked my sister to do a “bald spot check” periodically. I was nervous that my “spots” would go noticed. Sometimes, people can be vicious and say mean things.

I remind myself daily that my testimony and my journey isnt just for me, but it is for someone else. I cant Not share my experience ,because someone else may be about to go through, or is going through what I am going through in life.

This is my first step to accepting that Im going to HAVE to LOVE my 3 patches…because their now an extension of me. It is also a reminder to not put energy into pointless places, or people.

If it feels like stress….SLOWLYYYYYY back away…no actually RUN away. You dont have to subject yourself to a stressful situation-EVER.It doesnt matter if its a job-Pray and Fast for a new one, if its a spouse- try to work it out, but dont kill yourself doing it, and if its family/friends-love them from a distance, etc.

I will give an update towards the end of the month about my progress.

PS. Olive oil and/or Jamaican Black castor oil works well and is a natural way to help with Alopecia. Also, water/lavender essential oil is great for growing hair, I’ve noticed, and it makes your hair smell Awesome!! ❤  Rosemary apparently helps with Alopecia, too.

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Peace and Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick