Damn…Kids say the darndest thing! <insert eye rolls> I’m not even going to lie…my poor, little heart sunk in my ass for a second….each…and…every…damn…time that I say, “Hey, I’m turning 30”. *Pulls braids* I’m not old, I reply, “I was in my early twenties when i had you….”
I’m not nervous about turning 30 the least bit. Want to know what I’m scared as hell about for real though?!?? Student…fucking…loans! Yep, my time is up. I’m on the fast track to paying those “things” back ASAP. *groans* Can someone just GIVE me that exorbitant amount in a check already please? LOL
But, seriously…I’m excited. I can say I’m the real deal grown now…I wont seem like the baby out of the group… *Opens arms* I’m welcoming you 30!!
I have learned that time isn’t waiting…do all the fun things that your heart has desired~ Live for you~ You can only control yourself…you can’t control BF’s, friends, or husbands/wives~People are going to do what you allow them to do~ Say no sometimes~ Help someone~ Do charity work to remind yourself of humility~Love on your kids or spouse!~ Take lots of bubble baths with wine…yes, lots.~ Research ideas and understand how it’s related to your life~ Take meaningful trips~ Have alone time~ Ladies, wait guys out sometimes…and experience a 1 night stand, if that’s your thing( we will all do it one day)~Tell someone when they are wrong and right~ Love and appreciate your parents or loved one’s~ Choose peace over chaos, but “knuck and buck” if you have too(“ain’t nobody got time for that”)~ Love yourself unconditionally~ Smile…you never know who is watching~ 🙂
My list is endless….
These are just some things i started doing later in my twenties, when i decided to stop living for other people and began to live for myself. I’m doing me and doing what I want. It’s so much more peaceful… 🙂
Can we get old together and rich in experiences? 🙂
What life lessons can you reflect on before entering the “30” Club?
Peace and Blessings,
Random Mixed Chick
“Why do I choose unavailable men?”
Heal and be healed.
I did this spread Thursday night and I’m writing about it now. When I think of my situations…I think of Lauryn Hill’s song Ex-Factor. Have you listened to the words? A constant struggle…loves but reopening of scars every time, but even better discovering you just simply need to let some shit go. It resonated with me to the 10th degree. Loving someone so unavailable, but not being able to let go…even going to the extent of changing and accommodating. Even more, not being able to stay for you. Is that love?
- Situation: “The Blessing of Endless Possibilities”- Woman grounded…fish around her…she’s the center of it all. It speaks to me, saying, be the Light. Don’t take it too seriously…Let go of things… keep your innocence and imagination.
- Obstacles: “The Blessing of Questions”-Tree rooted, but sways…leaves falling…confusion…Let go of what no longer serves you. Be Free. I resonated with this card because I am solely a person of question… I question everything and then create different scenarios in my head about situations. This card plainly states, “Examine and identify any belief that stems from irrational fear.” My fears have been about self-worth, anxiety about things I can’t change, and above all, love (choosing to deal with my unavailability and dealing with men who are unavailable also, who can’t show me love at 100%). I have to let go of my fears of all of those things to be set free, so that I may attract the most positive things and be my best Higher self to receive those things.
- Recommended Actions: “A Blessing Woven in Time”- Rooted tree shedding leaves…rain equaling tears…change…no worries…speak the truth…my truth…burden lifted and blessing for me and all. Personally, I resonate with the message because I am blogging about my different experiences. They are normal experiences anyone would have, but none that anyone would be open and bold to be discussing. It has been on my heart that I can’t perpetrate…I have to be honest. I have to speak on my experience, to heal from my experiences. Then, everyone just might be more comfortable sharing and healing from their own experiences. In time is what the card says and “speak the truth and the burden will be lifted”. Self-sacrificing experiences isn’t for the faint-hearted, but I own every bit of it. I am on a mission to heal everyone!
- Outcome: “Your Blessed Power”- A woman represented…angel wings…heart….learning….growth…can do anything! Creator of things…blessing to the earth. I took the message from this card that I have the power to change my situation. When you know better, you do better!
Peace and Blessings,
Random Mixed Chick