Lemons of Life

Im sitting here in my bed on this Sunday, simply looking over life, my weekend-as it is coming to a close, and how peaceful I am with my kids today. We’re all doing our own thing in the house today. Im blasting my Pandora track That’s What I Like by Bruno Mars and Erykah Badu….just vibing as a write! Loving these feelings. I have to think, I am so grateful. I don’t have much material things as the richest person, but I’m not “piss poor” as they would say in the South either. I’m so grateful that I can lay in a bed and even write this for you to read now. Amazing!

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I’m running my hands over these keys on the keyboard…thinking, damn I have been through so much stuff in my life. It went from alcoholic parents, parents fighting, ending up in DHR, navigating through foster homes and a group home, moving out of the system, graduating high school and college, having kids, resurrecting dead ass relationships, mother passing, my spiritual journey, and finding self-which is an adventure in itself! I made it through…I’m literally here….2 days shy of 30 years!

Those lemons of life could have broken me with their sour asses, but I made pink lemonade baby! I’m here and thriving!!

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Be encouraged. Find your path and know that those problems are only temporary…they are lessons. That’s it. It’s okay if you buckle a few times, but get back up! Don’t think no one else falls either…we’re all trying to make it. Know that you are loved! I love you!

 

Peace and Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick

It’s Levels to this Spiritual Thing, You See!

Hello Blessed One’s

 

Have you ever been so excited about going online, or standing in line to get the best concert tickets to see your favorite musician? If you have the funds paired with the high level of passion and interest…then you are definitely going to want to be in the front to be able to see that person in concert. So…Why is it  that we can’t have that same enthusiasm for the very first row of seats at church?  Everybody will bypass the first row for no really good reason.

I have a been thinking about a creative way to express this post all week…and I finally have it. Its levels to this spiritual progress.

 

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Sitting to the Side or those Upper Level Seats: I can raise both of my hands because I have been there and done it! 🙂 I remember not wanting to be at church hearing a Word at all…..and if i had to go, I wanted to be able to escape….down the hall, stairs, or back entrance…especially if it was boring. During these times, I thought i could handle my problems alone, depended upon man to get what i needed, or simply had lack of respect for the minister’s thoughts..because they didnt apply to my life, right?! These are the seats where you dont have to do too much and you basically blend in with the rest of those lost people who are on the verge of “trying”. I fell asleep…i ate food….and barely even put money into the offering basket. When it was time to sing, or give Jesus some glory and praise…i lightly clapped and definitely looked around to see who was watching me. I think back to myself and asked why??

 

Next… we have the Lower Level Mezzanine and the Floor Seats: The Mezzanine seats gives you a good view that enables you to see details and may even cost a little more than the seats above. People who are at the halfway mark through their spiritual journey will usually sit here. These people have gotten out of their shell..a little…they will clap a little louder…and “touch their neighbor”.The Floor Seats are the bomb!! Now if youre here…youre most likely 3/4 the way. Sitting here at the concert means that its possible for you to dance, clap, shout, and lets not forget…touching your neighbor without looking around at your peers out of shame. When youre at this point, you have probably had a few road blocks and many trials that made you want to give up. You may have just given up, but you always came back to Jesus. You know of nothing else in your heart, mind and soul but to come back when you have been knocked down.

Now….if you have lots of dinero’ for Orchestra Seat, you my friend have made it….on Earth. But, if you have made it to the 1st and 2nd row of chairs, or pews at church, you have come full circle and understand that the riches here on Earth mean nothing without being grounded in the Word. You have sought the Kingdom and understand that if you seek Jesus First that everything else Will be added to you. Youre not afraid to raise your hand in praise and worship, youre not afraid of what people are going to think…because you now understand that they are sinners just like you. At this point, sitting in to the side, upper level, mezzanine, or floor seats does nothing for you. It only feels good to your soul to be close to the stage.

 

Personally, I have come full circle and made it to the Orchestra because I am just plain tired of sitting elsewhere. I need to focus on the Word and nothing else. If Im sitting in the front, where is my distraction from the Word?

What also helps to propel you forward on your spiritual journey is to have like-minded, or better individuals surrounding you. Ever heard of the “crabs in the bucket effect”? You cant get anywhere with people who want to keep you down with them in sin? Progression is wonderful. 🙂

Which area have you chosen to sit in lately? Let me know where you are at on your spiritual journey today!

 

Peace and Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick

 

My Love Patches….an Alopecia Inspired Post <3

Hello Blessed One’s,

I have battled since i discovered my “patches” about sharing this portion of my life’s journey. But…because everyone knows that i connect through “over-sharing” some things, I decided that I wouldnt live in fear of what others may think, or say.

Here goes…I have Alopecia.

According to the National Alopecia Areata Foundation,

“Alopecia areata is a common disease that results in the loss of hair on the scalp and elsewhere on the body. There are three types of alopecia areata; alopecia areata, alopecia totalis and alopecia universalis.

Alopecia areata, the most common variation of the autoimmune disease, presents itself as round, smooth patches of various sizes.

In all forms of alopecia areata, the hair follicles remain alive and are ready to resume normal hair production whenever they receive the appropriate signal. In all cases, hair re-growth may occur even without treatment and even after many years.

Alopecia areata occurs in males and females of all ages and races; however, onset most often begins in childhood and can be psychologically devastating. Although not life-threatening, alopecia areata is most certainly life-altering, and its sudden onset, recurrent episodes, and unpredictable course have a profound psychological impact on the lives of those disrupted by this disease. But there is hope. In all cases, hair re-growth may occur even without treatment and even after many years.”   National Alopecia Areata Foundation

I found out that I had a bald spot one night at the beginning of July 2014 when I was combing through my hair. I thought I was going a little crazy at first because i had never had spots before in my head. I kind of came to tears and began to panic. I began texting pictures to friends and family..which they told me to calm down about. I asked if this was lupus, even cancer…because i just didnt understand how hair could just go missing. I did the only thing I heard and knew how to do. I “laid hands” on my bald spot. Now…. to non-spiritual people, “laying hands” would seem silly, but from where Im from its common. I figured if people could pray over other people, then surely prayer could help a bald spot. The next few days I make a dermatologist appointment with the sweetest doctor I know( Shout out to Dr. Love of Montgomery Al.). In my free time, i began inundating my mind with different websites and videos..trying to self diagnose myself before my appointment. I was sure it had to be the hair products I was using even as a natural. I made up my mind that no matter what I had inflicting my scalp, that I would try to make my own natural hair products, just in case.

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Mid-July arrives when its time for me to meet with Dr.Love. She and the nurse examine my scalp….as im waiting for the news. She lets me know that I have Alopecia Areata. Also, she alerts me that I have two other spots in the back of my head With a raised freckle(she cuts it from my scalp to test for cancer…results came back..and it is non cancerous). She explains that it is an autoimmune disease and sometimes it can come when the person is under severe stress. I started to think ” hmmmm….I have been under a lot of personal stress lately…”. She told me try to eliminate the stress, get a massage, and go forth with receiving the steroid injections to stimulate my hair growth. I wasn’t scared about a needle going into my scalp because 1.) Im a diabetic and 2.) I want my hair to grow back. I did it. 🙂

It is now mid- August, my hair is sprouting some new hair and im excited! She said it would take at least 3 months for hair to begin growing. For a few weeks I was fearful to wear it down. I was on a trip to New Orleans and asked my sister to do a “bald spot check” periodically. I was nervous that my “spots” would go noticed. Sometimes, people can be vicious and say mean things.

I remind myself daily that my testimony and my journey isnt just for me, but it is for someone else. I cant Not share my experience ,because someone else may be about to go through, or is going through what I am going through in life.

This is my first step to accepting that Im going to HAVE to LOVE my 3 patches…because their now an extension of me. It is also a reminder to not put energy into pointless places, or people.

If it feels like stress….SLOWLYYYYYY back away…no actually RUN away. You dont have to subject yourself to a stressful situation-EVER.It doesnt matter if its a job-Pray and Fast for a new one, if its a spouse- try to work it out, but dont kill yourself doing it, and if its family/friends-love them from a distance, etc.

I will give an update towards the end of the month about my progress.

PS. Olive oil and/or Jamaican Black castor oil works well and is a natural way to help with Alopecia. Also, water/lavender essential oil is great for growing hair, I’ve noticed, and it makes your hair smell Awesome!! ❤  Rosemary apparently helps with Alopecia, too.

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Peace and Blessings,

Random Mixed Chick